I sometimes wonder if the friends and family that stop by to read my blog think the title is cheesy or to clique. If you do, I am sorry. Let me explain why it completely describes our life and that is why I named our family blog what I did. :)
Crazy- because well, life is crazy. A family of three, soon to be four, still living the college family life. Working and going to school full time while having family. It's crazy! "Then why didn't you wait to start having kids," you may ask. I thought about that while I was pregnant at times with Zoey (never as a regret but more like a how would my life be different), but now my daughter is and will always be the best thing that has ever happened to me. I became a mother and that is the best "career" I could ever want and have always wanted. It is hard at times like many other mothers will attest to, but when I look at my daughter, she was more then a little person who made me a mom. She is a blessing to my life, an answer to all my prayers and she is the one of two souls (for now) who loves me unconditionally right back. She is my best friend and my sissy.
But lets go back to the notion that Justin and I decided to wait to have kids. Our lives would still be just as crazy with school and work and anything else we decided to do to fill our time with. But what always confirms that we made the right choice for us is that our life wouldn't be nearly as fun without our little Zo-bear.
Beautiful- Well I will just start saying by how much of a hottie my hubby is but I don't want this post to get all cheesy and mushy on you readers. ;)
Honestly my life is beautiful because of what we have. We truly work everything we have each day. I know that with my family I have everything and it is always a BEAUTIFUL sight and gift that Heavenly Father has blessed our family with.
Hard times and struggles pop in and out of our life. We go through so many phases and pauses and setbacks at times. What I am always reminded of is that these experiences aren't set backs at all. It's growth. So I am moving forward, it's just unclear at the time. These are beautiful because they are always ended with great amounts of humility, peace, gratitude and love that God has stretched out to us. I just see all of that as beautiful.
Mess- This one should make sense to everyone. Messy, messy, messy life is. My house is always a mess. The rooms in our house just seem to trade off each week. Luckily it is more commonly the rooms that aren't as noticeable when company will pop by but a MESS this house still is. I'm still trying to learn to not stress to much over it and find a balance between keeping a clean house so I can function and remembering that happy kids are better then clean dishes. It's a work in progress.-- why do you think I cut my hair so short after I had Zo. My life was flipped upside down!
Besides the physical mess, life it's self is a mess. We don't know fully understand our journey here on earth. However, as our family strives to continue through, we are able to look back and make sense of what we just went through and why. I guess I shouldn't make it look that simple because sometimes these answers come quick, but sometimes they have taken years for us to figure out. It's a constant guessing game with our life, but our solid foundation is God and Jesus Christ themselves. The
LDS church brings so much strength, joy and love along with the solid foundation built on Christ and thats how we can somewhat sort through this messy life. They, Heavenly Father and Jesus, give us the light and knowledge we need to get through it.
One thing I have loved about this gospel that I don't think is talked about a lot is that because life is so unpredictable at times, Justin and I find our selves laughing all the time. We wonder why this happened or how in the world are we could to get out of this and after turning to God and placing faith in him and putting in our own effort, we get our answer and we can laugh about how stressed we were or how we thought we wouldn't make it through. (I am hoping I'm painting a picture of "Joy" happiness and not so much "brushing it off" laughter.)
With all this being said, I know everyone choses the life they want to live and your life might be very similar to ours, or very different. I will be a 23 year old mother of 2 and Justin will be a full time student and employee at the age of 24 with a family of 4.
With so many choices to pick from that this messy life has to offer all of us, lets all remember that it is those choses that make us different. Not better or worse, right or wrong. Just different from each other. We each have own life to sort through with Heavenly Father. With great love, support and respect I give to everyone who choses a life for themselves. We learn our "own" things in our own time. That is what truly makes this a crazy, beautiful, mess of a life.
Love you all!
Love,
The Jensen's XOXO
p.s. The babies gender will be announced soon! (Hopefully by the end of this week!) STAY TUNED!!
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My mom's hand on Zo's head trying to fix her hair in the picture... she never smiles for pics.
Happy 19th Birthday to my always little sister and my soon to be sister Sister missionary :) So proud of you Bamber! |
