Things are going to be different

I mean that statement with the most enthusiasm, excitement and happiness towards the future.  I'm very happy and excited of where our life has been, is at this moment and for the future.  When you have a wonderful gift come into your life, excepted or not, it's amazing to see where it has taken you when you look back.  For me, I'm not at the looking back part just yet.  I have 5 months of that, but yet I still remain hopeful.  You see, I have this wonderful gift, a baby growing inside me.  It's so strange that something so little can have such a big impact on our life.  I have never left at peace, happy, or so much love in my entire life.  This baby is not only going to be special but he/she will be ours.

Justin has changed so much since we found out our news.  I watch him interact with our neighbors children and it's like their ours at times.  He is such a loving man with a big heart already, but when you get him by these children I feel as though I have never seen such strength in love before.  It also makes me excited to see if he can show love to children that aren't even "ours," I know the love will only get bigger when the child he is playing with will call him Dad.

As with me, well I have somewhat crazy up and down emotions.  Being out of my first trimester they sure are very very much not existent almost which is so nice (because food sounds good and I'm not overly sad or mad about something... it got strange at times).  I feel this stronger sense of living my life to the fullest.  As repetitive or cheesy it may sound it's true.  Even though I can't see her/him, I feel such warmth and sense of peace knowing that my life has an even bigger purpose.  From how I react to emotions, food, activities, it's all different: in such a beautiful way.  I find myself holding my not even close to showing belly all the time and then when I catch myself doing it I just smile.  I can't help that I'm so excited.

Making the decision to bring one of Heavenly Fathers children was and has been the most rewarding and greatest blessing we could ever ask for.


We will find out the gender of the baby the week before Thanksgiving. I cannot wait til I can finally start saying HIM or HER instead of it.  :) and to call them by their name too. (boy: Jet, girl: Zoey)

Thank you for everyone who has, is or will be our special angels in our life.  We love you all.