This Christmas season was simply more beautiful than it has ever been. This may seem a bit odd to say this at first but my Christmas season became the perfect Christmas season when my Grandma Hansen passed away yesterday. There are many reasons for me claiming this to be perfect and I hope you will be able to read this and understand why and if not, please just try to be open to my thoughts.
December 25, 2012
Christmas day Justin and I called my parents to wish them a Merry Christmas and before we hung up the phone my dad told us that my grandma had slipped and fallen and "broke" the tube in her back that was allowing her to function in this life with as little pain as possible but image a tube in your back, dripping fluid, you couldn't escape a whole lot of pain but that just goes to show you there that my grandma was and still is a fighter. We were told she seemed to be doing okay, but this wasn't the best condition she could be in at her age and with the amount pain her body had already been through it didn't look to promising.
December 26, 2012
The next day was kind of just a wait to hear something. Anything really. Justin and I were driving to go see Les Mis when I get a call from my mom saying that grandma had a stroke and was unable to talk was unconscious. Hearing my mom say this brought quiet a lot of joy to me only because time and time again my grandma would always joke, but seriously joke, about how she would like to die she would like to become unconscious have a stroke and die. My mom then said that they unhooked her from everything (hearing in my grandmas voice "No heroic measures will anyone go to to save my life, just let me die") and that it could be a quick passing or it could take a couple of days before her body finally quits working. We continued on into the movie theater and sat down.
To any of you who have seen Les Mis keep reading, if you haven't and don't want me to spoil it even though hopefully most of you know how it ends. Jean Valjean is old, and leaves Cosette's wedding to die. He is met by Cosette's mother, (met by a family memeber/loved one) Fantine who has already die and is there to help bring him to the other side. As this scene continues Jean Valjean "spirit" has been lifted out of his body can hear the spirits on the other side greet him in song, "Do You Hear the People." (hearing angels sing and rejoice the homecoming of Phyllis Millar Hansen and listening to the words of that song and how true it is to come home and listen to the people on the other side sing to you about the fight that we had here on earth) [here] He walks down the brick sidewalk and he is greeted by the father of the catholic church (Meeting Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ) then is taken to the other side where he is met by Fantine again, and all then young men (Grandma seeing all the rest of her family and friends) who fought for their rights. Where I have inserted the work [here] is where I read the text saying that my grandmother had passed away. Now go back and read this and correlate it in a religion sense.
I cannot not tell you how amazing that experience was and still is to me. Being able to steer away from being sad that she has passed and simply being fill with love and joy as I try to image this Les Mis experience that grandma just went through.
Life changing for me.
The best part, really the best part is that December 26th is her birthday. Happy Birthday Grandma! I'm sure you got the best birthday gift you could have asked for.
Thank you Grandma for being such a strong, loving, giving, special woman in my life. You have been a beautiful example and I am proud to call you my grandma. I love you always, and I can't wait to see your face again.
Thursday, December 27, 2012
Thursday, November 22, 2012
Baby Jensen
We are excited to announce that Justin and I are going to be having a little baby girl!! She is going to be so much fun and she is already full of joy and loves loves loves to kick mom all the time :) I still don't look 5 months pregnant but I promise I am. Our little Zoey is in there and she is workin' hard in there.
Name: Zoey Tresa Jensen (Tresa is my moms name.)
I posted pictures and a video on her page. Check them out!
At our ultrasound, Zoey was kicking everywhere. She wouldn't hold still and the tech. was pushing on my very full bladder to try to get a good 3D of her face. We watched her swallow her Amniotic Fluid and her heart was beating so fast. She was sucking her thumb and swinging her arms around!!
It's so perfectly wonderful how our life continues to turn out for the best!
We could not be anymore excited!!! We love our little Zoey so much!!
I am so thankful for how much she has already changed my life and our life together. She helps me see things in a whole new way. Can't wait to see what else she will do once she is here.
Love
The Jensen's!
Name: Zoey Tresa Jensen (Tresa is my moms name.)
I posted pictures and a video on her page. Check them out!
At our ultrasound, Zoey was kicking everywhere. She wouldn't hold still and the tech. was pushing on my very full bladder to try to get a good 3D of her face. We watched her swallow her Amniotic Fluid and her heart was beating so fast. She was sucking her thumb and swinging her arms around!!
It's so perfectly wonderful how our life continues to turn out for the best!
We could not be anymore excited!!! We love our little Zoey so much!!
I am so thankful for how much she has already changed my life and our life together. She helps me see things in a whole new way. Can't wait to see what else she will do once she is here.
Love
The Jensen's!
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
It's a.....
Hahah. gotcha!
you thought I was going to tell you didn't you. Well we found out today and I am to the point where screaming it to the world sounds really fun right now, but I want to make you all wait. Because.... (I promise I have a good reason) we want our families to be the first to know. When we first found out that we were expecting our families were one of the last to know partly because we wanted to tell them in person and we live 3 hours away and weren't going to make it up for awhile. Now that we know and Thanksgiving is next week we will tell them and then I promise you will be the next persons to know.
Until then- this is all you get.
Oh but if you aren't to upset at me by this post feel free to share great ideas about how to announce the gender to our families. :) Much appreciated!
Love,
Justin and Lindsey and baby!
you thought I was going to tell you didn't you. Well we found out today and I am to the point where screaming it to the world sounds really fun right now, but I want to make you all wait. Because.... (I promise I have a good reason) we want our families to be the first to know. When we first found out that we were expecting our families were one of the last to know partly because we wanted to tell them in person and we live 3 hours away and weren't going to make it up for awhile. Now that we know and Thanksgiving is next week we will tell them and then I promise you will be the next persons to know.
Until then- this is all you get.
Oh but if you aren't to upset at me by this post feel free to share great ideas about how to announce the gender to our families. :) Much appreciated!
Love,
Justin and Lindsey and baby!
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Happy Halloween BOO!
Where does the time go.. I can't believe we are in November. There are 2 weeks until we find out what we are having, 3 weeks until Thanksgiving break and then 3 more weeks until the end of the semester. WOW- so far everyone. We are still living and are alive here in Cedar City.
We have taken down almost all of are Halloween decor and now we will wait out the reds, oranges, and yellows. The beautiful colors of Fall and November are everywhere here and I love it. Snow is just around the corner though, but snow isn't bad all the time. Next: after Thanksgiving of course we will put up or Christmas stuff!!!! :) Yeah!
Until then, here are our Halloween costumes. It was so fun to wear them (not a bias judgement but our costumes were the best) And the best part, is not a lot of people picked up on what the back of our costumes meant.. hahahah except a group of old people in our ward almost died laughing!
We have taken down almost all of are Halloween decor and now we will wait out the reds, oranges, and yellows. The beautiful colors of Fall and November are everywhere here and I love it. Snow is just around the corner though, but snow isn't bad all the time. Next: after Thanksgiving of course we will put up or Christmas stuff!!!! :) Yeah!
Until then, here are our Halloween costumes. It was so fun to wear them (not a bias judgement but our costumes were the best) And the best part, is not a lot of people picked up on what the back of our costumes meant.. hahahah except a group of old people in our ward almost died laughing!
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| We are saving these! p.s. they are homemade too. |
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| Jokes on you.... lol |
Monday, October 29, 2012
Lately::
Justin and I have been so gratefully busy with life lately.
With school Justin is always busy with homework and I, well Justin gets mad that I am a college student without homework.. and yes I am passing with great grades all my classes, but Justin thinks it's unfair. This is in no way me bragging, I just have to remind Justin that I am not taking all of my graduating classes. I'm still on my core classes... it seems to cheer him up a little bit but he hates that he is always on the computer and I get a little more free time.
Work is going really well too. It's very fun working with the great girls at Sunrise RTC in Hurricane. Even though the girls come with severe problems they really aren't that much different from me. They are just lacking love and and never been shown how to show and/or receive respect for people and themselves. I just really hope that I can always do my best at work to help them out in anyway that I can.
-The only down fall is when work days to get tough and rough it is such a weight and burden on me emotionally.. it's kind of like the feeling you get around people that you have to put a show on for, or they are constantly making you uncomfortable by what they say or do.
Other then that I love the feeling of going to work about being able to help and watch these girls grow and in turn I get a lot of out life as well.
Our baby is doing very well. :) but... I have been having a little problems with my body image. This may sound very strange but I haven't gain any weight being pregnant. My last check up 2 weeks ago I had lost 10lbs. A lot of people have mentioned that "you don't even look 4 months pregnant." and they are always just saying congrats on not showing and that they showed very early. At first I was really excited that I have lost weight and that I can still wear my clothes but it wasn't until I was hit with a comment on Sunday from a very seemingly "concerned", outspoken mother in my ward.
---After Sacrament meeting at our LDS church a mom in my ward came up to me and asked if I was still pregnant. I told her I was and she had to mentioned that when she saw walk in she thought I had had a miscarriage and lost our baby because I don't look 4 months pregnant. I was again kind of flattered that I'm not showing but then later it hit me. I felt and still do feel like the worst mom. It makes me feel like I'm not eating right and taking care of myself. It's hard not to let my thoughts wonder but it's just scary to think about. What if we go in to office at our next appointment and there is no longer a baby.... it's kind of a tough think sometimes...
On a positive note though, the last time we went to the doc's office we heard the heartbeat. It was so fun and exciting to hear it. :) We also scheduled our 3D ultrasound where we get to find out if we are having a boy or girl. It's in two weeks but I'm not going to give you a specific date only because if you know and you ask it will be really hard for me not to spill it... and I want to take pictures and surprise mine and Justin's families first.
Justin and I are happy and excited and we are slowly adding to our house and planning for our baby. :):)
That's an update for now. Love you all!
-Lindsey
With school Justin is always busy with homework and I, well Justin gets mad that I am a college student without homework.. and yes I am passing with great grades all my classes, but Justin thinks it's unfair. This is in no way me bragging, I just have to remind Justin that I am not taking all of my graduating classes. I'm still on my core classes... it seems to cheer him up a little bit but he hates that he is always on the computer and I get a little more free time.
Work is going really well too. It's very fun working with the great girls at Sunrise RTC in Hurricane. Even though the girls come with severe problems they really aren't that much different from me. They are just lacking love and and never been shown how to show and/or receive respect for people and themselves. I just really hope that I can always do my best at work to help them out in anyway that I can.
-The only down fall is when work days to get tough and rough it is such a weight and burden on me emotionally.. it's kind of like the feeling you get around people that you have to put a show on for, or they are constantly making you uncomfortable by what they say or do.
Other then that I love the feeling of going to work about being able to help and watch these girls grow and in turn I get a lot of out life as well.
Our baby is doing very well. :) but... I have been having a little problems with my body image. This may sound very strange but I haven't gain any weight being pregnant. My last check up 2 weeks ago I had lost 10lbs. A lot of people have mentioned that "you don't even look 4 months pregnant." and they are always just saying congrats on not showing and that they showed very early. At first I was really excited that I have lost weight and that I can still wear my clothes but it wasn't until I was hit with a comment on Sunday from a very seemingly "concerned", outspoken mother in my ward.
---After Sacrament meeting at our LDS church a mom in my ward came up to me and asked if I was still pregnant. I told her I was and she had to mentioned that when she saw walk in she thought I had had a miscarriage and lost our baby because I don't look 4 months pregnant. I was again kind of flattered that I'm not showing but then later it hit me. I felt and still do feel like the worst mom. It makes me feel like I'm not eating right and taking care of myself. It's hard not to let my thoughts wonder but it's just scary to think about. What if we go in to office at our next appointment and there is no longer a baby.... it's kind of a tough think sometimes...
On a positive note though, the last time we went to the doc's office we heard the heartbeat. It was so fun and exciting to hear it. :) We also scheduled our 3D ultrasound where we get to find out if we are having a boy or girl. It's in two weeks but I'm not going to give you a specific date only because if you know and you ask it will be really hard for me not to spill it... and I want to take pictures and surprise mine and Justin's families first.
Justin and I are happy and excited and we are slowly adding to our house and planning for our baby. :):)
That's an update for now. Love you all!
-Lindsey
Friday, October 12, 2012
Things are going to be different
I mean that statement with the most enthusiasm, excitement and happiness towards the future. I'm very happy and excited of where our life has been, is at this moment and for the future. When you have a wonderful gift come into your life, excepted or not, it's amazing to see where it has taken you when you look back. For me, I'm not at the looking back part just yet. I have 5 months of that, but yet I still remain hopeful. You see, I have this wonderful gift, a baby growing inside me. It's so strange that something so little can have such a big impact on our life. I have never left at peace, happy, or so much love in my entire life. This baby is not only going to be special but he/she will be ours.
Justin has changed so much since we found out our news. I watch him interact with our neighbors children and it's like their ours at times. He is such a loving man with a big heart already, but when you get him by these children I feel as though I have never seen such strength in love before. It also makes me excited to see if he can show love to children that aren't even "ours," I know the love will only get bigger when the child he is playing with will call him Dad.
As with me, well I have somewhat crazy up and down emotions. Being out of my first trimester they sure are very very much not existent almost which is so nice (because food sounds good and I'm not overly sad or mad about something... it got strange at times). I feel this stronger sense of living my life to the fullest. As repetitive or cheesy it may sound it's true. Even though I can't see her/him, I feel such warmth and sense of peace knowing that my life has an even bigger purpose. From how I react to emotions, food, activities, it's all different: in such a beautiful way. I find myself holding my not even close to showing belly all the time and then when I catch myself doing it I just smile. I can't help that I'm so excited.
Making the decision to bring one of Heavenly Fathers children was and has been the most rewarding and greatest blessing we could ever ask for.
We will find out the gender of the baby the week before Thanksgiving. I cannot wait til I can finally start saying HIM or HER instead of it. :) and to call them by their name too. (boy: Jet, girl: Zoey)
Thank you for everyone who has, is or will be our special angels in our life. We love you all.
Justin has changed so much since we found out our news. I watch him interact with our neighbors children and it's like their ours at times. He is such a loving man with a big heart already, but when you get him by these children I feel as though I have never seen such strength in love before. It also makes me excited to see if he can show love to children that aren't even "ours," I know the love will only get bigger when the child he is playing with will call him Dad.
As with me, well I have somewhat crazy up and down emotions. Being out of my first trimester they sure are very very much not existent almost which is so nice (because food sounds good and I'm not overly sad or mad about something... it got strange at times). I feel this stronger sense of living my life to the fullest. As repetitive or cheesy it may sound it's true. Even though I can't see her/him, I feel such warmth and sense of peace knowing that my life has an even bigger purpose. From how I react to emotions, food, activities, it's all different: in such a beautiful way. I find myself holding my not even close to showing belly all the time and then when I catch myself doing it I just smile. I can't help that I'm so excited.
Making the decision to bring one of Heavenly Fathers children was and has been the most rewarding and greatest blessing we could ever ask for.
We will find out the gender of the baby the week before Thanksgiving. I cannot wait til I can finally start saying HIM or HER instead of it. :) and to call them by their name too. (boy: Jet, girl: Zoey)
Thank you for everyone who has, is or will be our special angels in our life. We love you all.
Saturday, September 1, 2012
Reasons to Love Him
Justin Dean Jensen,
I love you. I love you more then anything else is this whole world. You are such a blessing in my life and I am grateful for you each and ever day. I love your big heart. You always have room for me no matter what and I never feel like I'm a burden to you. You make me feel like I'm a princess, a queen and someone who is so important always. I can't tell you how grateful I am for you. I'm grateful for your smile, your laugh and your hugs. You make me feel small when I hug you, but not insignificant. You are my one and only and I will continue to try my best to be your one and only through word, action and deed. I want to be your everything and more. I want to show you that I will never give up on us and that it is me and you together, forever, now and throughout eternity. You are going to be my children's Dad. I can't tell you how that makes me feel inside. You will be the greatest person in our children's life and I can only hope that they become like you throughout their lives. Thank you for you positive example, your love and friendship and I'm so excited to await more of our future together. I love you Ju Bear.
Love,
Lindsey Jensen aka: your friend, lover and children's Momma.
I love you. I love you more then anything else is this whole world. You are such a blessing in my life and I am grateful for you each and ever day. I love your big heart. You always have room for me no matter what and I never feel like I'm a burden to you. You make me feel like I'm a princess, a queen and someone who is so important always. I can't tell you how grateful I am for you. I'm grateful for your smile, your laugh and your hugs. You make me feel small when I hug you, but not insignificant. You are my one and only and I will continue to try my best to be your one and only through word, action and deed. I want to be your everything and more. I want to show you that I will never give up on us and that it is me and you together, forever, now and throughout eternity. You are going to be my children's Dad. I can't tell you how that makes me feel inside. You will be the greatest person in our children's life and I can only hope that they become like you throughout their lives. Thank you for you positive example, your love and friendship and I'm so excited to await more of our future together. I love you Ju Bear.
Love,
Lindsey Jensen aka: your friend, lover and children's Momma.
Monday, August 6, 2012
The Rainy Days
Cedar has been such a fun place to live in. We have had the craziest rain storms at least 2+ times a week. It is absolutely beautiful! To sit on my porch or look through my front window and watch and hear the sound of rain (ahh my headache just went away) it's peaceful. In this town when it rains, oh you bet in rains. The gutters are completely filled greatly resemble 2 ft deep x 3ft wide streams. On my street my neighbors are always running around in the rain soaking wet, laughing. It makes me think about the joy the we can receive when we repent. I think the best part about these rain storms is that the earth is fresh and clean again. It reminds me of the song we sang in primary last Sunday, "When I Am Baptized"
I like to look for rainbows whenever there is rain
And ponder on the beauty of an earth made clean again.
Words: Nita Dale Milner, b. 1952; adapted. © 1989 IRI
Music: Nita Dale Milner, b. 1952. © 1989 IRI
I loved singing that song to me. That day it rang so clear and true to me about being clean body, mind and spirit. Just like our earth is cleansed and purified from rain, we to can receive joy from making right of our wrong doings.
I pray that all of us can strive to be mindful of what we put on and in our bodies and cautions of what we do and say to loved ones and others. And never forget that cleanliness is through our Atoning Savior Jesus Christ.
Love you All!
I like to look for rainbows whenever there is rain
And ponder on the beauty of an earth made clean again.
Chorus
I want my life to be as clean as earth right after rain.
I want to be the best I can and live with God again.
I want my life to be as clean as earth right after rain.
I want to be the best I can and live with God again.
I know when I am baptized my wrongs are washed away,
And I can be forgiven and improve myself each day.
And I can be forgiven and improve myself each day.
I want my life to be as clean as earth right after rain.
I want to be the best I can and live with God again.
I want to be the best I can and live with God again.
I loved singing that song to me. That day it rang so clear and true to me about being clean body, mind and spirit. Just like our earth is cleansed and purified from rain, we to can receive joy from making right of our wrong doings.
I pray that all of us can strive to be mindful of what we put on and in our bodies and cautions of what we do and say to loved ones and others. And never forget that cleanliness is through our Atoning Savior Jesus Christ.
Love you All!
Sunday, July 29, 2012
What I Woke Up To
This is my husband plain and simple. He really is such a thoughtful man.
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