Lately::

Justin and I have been so gratefully busy with life lately.

With school Justin is always busy with homework and I, well Justin gets mad that I am a college student without homework.. and yes I am passing with great grades all my classes, but Justin thinks it's unfair.  This is in no way me bragging, I just have to remind Justin that I am not taking all of my graduating classes.  I'm still on my core classes... it seems to cheer him up a little bit but he hates that he is always on the computer and I get a little more free time.

Work is going really well too.  It's very fun working with the great girls at Sunrise RTC in Hurricane.  Even though the girls come with severe problems they really aren't that much different from me.  They are just lacking love and and never been shown how to show and/or receive respect for people and themselves.  I just really hope that I can always do my best at work to help them out in anyway that I can.
-The only down fall is when work days to get tough and rough it is such a weight and burden on me emotionally.. it's kind of like the feeling you get around people that you have to put a show on for, or they are constantly making you uncomfortable by what they say or do.
Other then that I love the feeling of going to work about being able to help and watch these girls grow and in turn I get a lot of out life as well.

Our baby is doing very well. :) but... I have been having a little problems with my body image.  This may sound very strange but I haven't gain any weight being pregnant.  My last check up 2 weeks ago I had lost 10lbs.  A lot of people have mentioned that "you don't even look 4 months pregnant."  and they are always just saying congrats on not showing and that they showed very early.  At first I was really excited that I have lost weight and that I can still wear my clothes but it wasn't until I was hit with a comment on Sunday from a very seemingly "concerned", outspoken mother in my ward.

---After Sacrament meeting at our LDS church a mom in my ward came up to me and asked if I was still pregnant.  I told her I was and she had to mentioned that when she saw walk in she thought I had had a miscarriage and lost our baby because I don't look 4 months pregnant.  I was again kind of flattered that I'm not showing but then later it hit me.  I felt and still do feel like the worst mom.  It makes me feel like I'm not eating right and taking care of myself.  It's hard not to let my thoughts wonder but it's just scary to think about.  What if we go in to office at our next appointment and there is no longer a baby.... it's kind of a tough think sometimes...

On a positive note though, the last time we went to the doc's office we heard the heartbeat.  It was so fun and exciting to hear it. :)  We also scheduled our 3D ultrasound where we get to find out if we are having a boy or girl. It's in two weeks but I'm not going to give you a specific date only because if you know and you ask it will be really hard for me not to spill it... and I want to take pictures and surprise mine and Justin's families first.

Justin and I are happy and excited and we are slowly adding to our house and planning for our baby. :):)

That's an update for now.  Love you all!
-Lindsey